Ok, so im back again.
I told you that Im super happy and all right? And that Im afraid that all this happiness might be taken away from me. Now, I actually don’t mind if it is taken away from me.i mean, happiness is everywhere right?
Its just that sometimes, we don’t need to look for it. It comes looking for us. And that kind of happiness is worth the wait. Ive got all the happiness I need now. The kind ive been getting is not important. Right? So why bother. There are much more important things in life for me at this point in time.
Today, I found out that Kak Nanik’s late grandmother passed away. She has no one left now. I wish she is here in Singapore with me now cos I really need her.
Shes always been there for me. And I am proud to say that ive always been there for her too. But I know that shes a strong person. She taught me so much, things no one else would be able to teach me. And I owe all of that to her. In other words, she rox. Like hell(:…I mean, like HEAVEN:D haha
Kay lah, Idk what to say cos everything is in my heart. Sometimes I think keeping things to myself is the best way to go. Let whatever I feel be my secret between myself and Allah.
but sometimes i dont understand. why is it that the people closest to me, living with me can have such bad thoughts.
what you see and hear, it just isnt the same as what im really going through.
the point is, you dont know me.
in fact sometimes, i feel like you dont know me anymore.
cos you dont seem to be accepting me anymore.
when i think about kak nanik and all the times shes helped me, i feel like a loser cos she needs help now. but im not there. and now i need help but shes not here. why is it like this?
take away everthing form me, i dont care.
just dont take away those one/two people i need most and of course, dont take away my faith. faith in myself and faith in Allah Almighty.
because of these, i am who i am now.
i am not a fake with a painted coat on myself,trying to be someone or something i am not.
all im asking is to accept me, accept me as how i am and not how you want me to be.
Kay lah babes(:
Ending here…
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Take care(:
Lots of love
Xoxo
Nailahthaha~~~Labels: sugar is not always sweet
